Tuesday, 18 January 2011 17:00

Maud's First Feelings of Love

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Yesterday we brought you news of L.M. Montgomery’s own record of her “love affairs” and her mission to create a complete account for her grandchildren of all the men who made an impression on her.  In the lead up to Valentine's Day we will provide segments of Maud’s journals as well as historical information about her “suitors”, which will no doubt give readers a better idea of the woman who created Anne Shirley – whose own ideas of romance are a constant source of amusement and beauty in the books and movies made about her.

Here is Maud’s very first recollection of being in love:

“I was twelve or thirteen years old, I am not quite sure which, when I first fell in love.  There was a musical concert in Cavendish Hall one night, given by three graduates of the Blind School in Halifax.  One of these was a Mr. Chisholm—a tall, slendor young man with little golden dabs of side-whiskers, a most angelic face, and a more than angelic voice.  He sang several songs and I, small miss, gazing up at him from the audience lost my heart completely.

It is the truth that I felt, for the first time a very strange sensation—a romantic yearning of hitherto unknown and of almost terrifying sweetness.  It mattered not at all that my hero was blind.  He was perfection, that was all.  When I went home it seemed to me quite intolerable that I should never see him again and the world was suddenly big and lonely.  I thought about him for a week—and then forgot him.

Fifteen years afterwards in Halifax I met his widow.  Her husband had recently died and she was heart-broken—for it seems that he had really been all my young fancy had painted.  I told her with a smile that her husband had been the first man I had ever been in love with and she laughed sadly and said that everyone who knew him loved him.  So I did not bestow my virgin passion unworthily.

It seems absurd to speak of that experience as love; but, save in intensity and duration, what I felt that evening, as I gazed at the young singer’s pale, spiritual face—it really was spiritual in spite of the side-whiskers—and listened to his thrilling voice differed in nothing from the similar emotions of after years.  There was no passion in it, save of the soul, but that night I crossed the threshold of life’s temple, though I did not penetrate to the inner shrine.”

Source: The Selected Journals of L.M. Montgomery, Volume II: 1910-1921

Photo: Maud at age 12. - taken from The Lucy Maud Montgomery Album

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