Here is Maud’s very first recollection of being in love:
“I was twelve or thirteen years old, I am not quite sure which, when I first fell in love. There was a musical concert in Cavendish Hall one night, given by three graduates of the Blind School in Halifax. One of these was a Mr. Chisholm—a tall, slendor young man with little golden dabs of side-whiskers, a most angelic face, and a more than angelic voice. He sang several songs and I, small miss, gazing up at him from the audience lost my heart completely.
It is the truth that I felt, for the first time a very strange sensation—a romantic yearning of hitherto unknown and of almost terrifying sweetness. It mattered not at all that my hero was blind. He was perfection, that was all. When I went home it seemed to me quite intolerable that I should never see him again and the world was suddenly big and lonely. I thought about him for a week—and then forgot him.
Fifteen years afterwards in Halifax I met his widow. Her husband had recently died and she was heart-broken—for it seems that he had really been all my young fancy had painted. I told her with a smile that her husband had been the first man I had ever been in love with and she laughed sadly and said that everyone who knew him loved him. So I did not bestow my virgin passion unworthily.
It seems absurd to speak of that experience as love; but, save in intensity and duration, what I felt that evening, as I gazed at the young singer’s pale, spiritual face—it really was spiritual in spite of the side-whiskers—and listened to his thrilling voice differed in nothing from the similar emotions of after years. There was no passion in it, save of the soul, but that night I crossed the threshold of life’s temple, though I did not penetrate to the inner shrine.”
Source: The Selected Journals of L.M. Montgomery, Volume II: 1910-1921
Photo: Maud at age 12. - taken from The Lucy Maud Montgomery Album



